Sa oras na ito, natanto ko na may bago akong inklinasyon sa pagiisa. At ang pinahihintulutan ko lamang makita ako, at makasama, dahil sila lang ang namimiss ko, ay ang mga kasapi at dating kasapi ng Malate, at ang aking mga ka-batch sa lit, si linnzi, kitkat, bea at ida.

bakit kaya? bago to ah.

I think it's all falling into place. I've read that Robert Downer JR is making a cameo appearance in the Hulk movie, which starts Edward Norton and Liv Tyler. I've also learned that the Avengers movie is set for release in 2010, following the original story line from the marvel comics back in the 60's.

The original avengers team was made up of the Hulk, Iron Man, The Ant Man (who eventually became The Giant), and Thor. They teamed up in the hopes of defeating this villain whose name i have forgot. hmmm...was it swordman? i can't remember. damn. Hulk eventually left, because he's an unstable green buffoon, and was replaced by Captain America, whose movie will be released in 2009 as well.

In the rumors i have read over the net, there would be three avengers movie altogether. In the final one, it was said that we can expect an appearance from The Vision, and of course, Magneto's children, Quicksilver and The Scarlet Witch.

Oh i do hope that the movie will tackle about the eventual love affair between The Vision and The Scarlet Witch. That was fucked up. Moral of the Story: if your the child of one of the greatest mutant villain of all time, and if you possess powers which can alter time and space, don't go falling in love with an alien.

*sabaw*

I've also read that they're in the works of a Secret Wars movie. And i think it wouldn't be so difficult since they have already made movies, or is still in the midst of making movies, about all the heroes who were part of that story arc.

yey.

crap. hahaha. my inner geek is going weee. :D

I may be suffering from workshop hangover. just a few minutes ago, as i was buying a pack of marlboro reds at the store outside of our subdivision, i had this instinct to buy a longneck bottle of emperador as well.

and i'm craving for chicken. grilled chicken dipped in soy sauce mixed with chili and calamansi. and a cup of steamed, sticky rice showered with chicken oil. and a few pieces of chicken butt will also do.

dayum.

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If a woman's rationale is to murder, if her upbringing, the culture she is surrounded with, consists of nothing but death and a unemotional attachment to it, how do i begin to explore the evil of her persona? how do i expose her beastliness? and how do i make apparent that it is a possibility for her to be enamored with someone who is actually her enemy?

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There is both a need and a desire to write about what happend in the last week.

But i think it still too soon. As my criticism teacher, Dr. David Bayot might say, the emotional dusts has not settled in my conciousness. I still need to recollect my thoughts in tranquility.

Upon takeoff, as Ida and I stared off at the window of our plane, watching streams of rainwater glide and scatter through the stratosphere, we both agreed that there was a tinge of sadness, no, melancholia, at our departure.

We already miss the panelists. We miss Balay Kanilungan. We miss the dozens of chicken parts we consumed. We miss Bacolod. We miss the fellows, most especially the textmates, margie, en, charles and mitch.

There is still an overflow of emotions, and it impairs me to write. so for now, i shall leave my journal the official lexicon of the textmates. bukas na ang sentihan. hahaha. yak kadiri. :P

ficial TXTM8RS Inuman Lexicon

Load – alak/alcohol
Magload – tumagay
Dial – chaser
Magdial – uminom ng chaser
Text – pulutan
Deadbat – nagsuka
Lobat – tahimik
Charging – tulog
Cell site – inuman/lugar
No network coverage – walang mahanap na lugar
Line – free flowing alcohol
Pasa-load – tagay nang kaunti
All text – puro pulutan
Speed dial – matakaw sa chaser
Missent – naitagay sa mali
“wer n u” – “nasaan na ang tagay?”
“d2 n me” – “narito ang tagay”
sun – gin
globe – grand matador/hard
smart – san mig/beer
Vodafone – wine

note: eto ang ginamit naming dayalekto upang maplano namin kung pano ipapasok ang alak sa loob ng St. La Salle. hahahaha.

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Jilliene, Samantha, Christa, Paolita, Akire, Neobie, at ang mga iba pang kasapi ng Malate Literary Folio, namimiss ko kayo, mga lecheng churva kayo. magkikita tayo dapat. isang kahon lang ang dala kong napolyones at isang pack ng mini piaya at pag naubusan kayo sorry na lang. :)

We had supper at Dr. Conssouela's house.

They fed us lechon and paella.

i think it's their own way of preparing us for our own butchering. haha. :))

Off to Bacolod in ten hours. wish me luck. ho-hum. hahahaha. :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jo2bAaAAiJU


may video pala ang "She Doesn't Get In" hahahaha. ang sabaw niya. in a disturbing way. :P

My parents finally discovered that i failed statistics. Yes, statistics. My worst enemy that has come to do algebra's bidding. And since i won't be in the city for a week, since im going to be in Bacolod, it's impossible for me to enroll myself in summer classes.

And so the argument began.

My father wanted me to quit the workshop. I think i cursed him at that point. and i think, at that moment, they have become the parents i dreaded to have. I told him that if he makes me quit the workshop, i still won't go to summer class. finally, he gave up at his futile attempts to break me off from that which i wanted to do.

i paid for my own tickets. damn.

and of, they also told me that my 4 in thesis and my nomination in the outstanding award doesn't matter to them. and my other 4 in my majors as well. yes. my dear parents, that does lots of good for my ego. It would have been much more humane if they threw my thesis out of the window and all of the papers and works ive done as a literature major.

conservative, catholic, stuck-up pricks.

yes, they did pass all their subjects. they graduated on time. but they will always be average. they will never be remembered. they will just be another pair of mindless drones trudging this reality, praising a non existent god, hoping to survive. they will never excel at anything. they will be forgotten.

they will be nothing. not even a memory. at least i wont be wasting one of my precious neurons in their name.


i, on the other hand, am not that. fuck them.

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Announcement: Yes! Im still in school for the first term! hahahahaha.

Akire! hahaha. Staffer mo pa ako. :))

and new EB, expect that i'm enlisting myself as a support staffer in the next MOS.

Martin, that means beer for us.

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Two days before sunday. then i'm off to Bacolod. i can't wait. In this moment, in this house, i could finally comprehend what Sartre's No Exit was all about.

fuck.

The defense of my thesis is slated for the 10th of April. That's a thursday. It'll be at the 5th floor of the yuchenco building. The time of the dreaded slaughtering will commence at 2pm.

Once it concludes, can someone play 'High' by The Cure for me? yis.

you are all invited. bring your pagan prayers and incantations. wohooo. and popcorn. or unpopped corn if that's your thing. anlabo. :D

Pao and I have always hated the booksale branch located in the middle of SM Bicutan. Apart from its unorganized stacks of magazines and books which will take you hours to scan, the titles of the books were never that good to begin with.Tthere were always those sappy love stories novels, that could possibly fall under the romance mode of Philippine Literature, and those Clive Cussler adventure novels that are categorized under escape literature by critics and even by my own professor.

But then, today, i saw three books which had altered my perception towards that diminutive bookstore.

1. Slowness-Milan Kundera
2. Birds of America-Lorrie Moore
3. The Collected Stories of Guy de Mapaussant

i bought them all for a hundred pesos each.

yeyyyyyy. :D

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i hanged out in cerealicious today. to pass the time, and while editing my thesis, i decided to download a few songs off the net since the wi-fi there is free anyway. nagulat ako ang bilis ng putanginang connection nila. hahaha. :D

77.9 kb per second ang puta. i was able to download two movies under five hours. nyahahaha. :))

for the past few months, i have devoted all my time and effort in creative writing. it has produced desirable results and accomplishments, and i am much grateful for that. but a few minutes ago, as i was staring blankly at the blank and bright monitor of my computer screen, with the intention of revising, i realized that my brain, my conciousness, the imaginative part of my cranium, is drained of all its creative juices.

what is left now is seepage. pus.

Break time.

Two weeks after my defense, i shall not be writing any fiction. i will dedicate myself to reading and watching movies, and my only form of writing would be here in my cursed blog or a few writing exercises so as to avoid stagnation.

*bow*

- During the Bisita Iglesia, pretend to pray the Way of the Cross. or do what i did. i observed the architecture and details of the churches we visited and rendered them into words and paragraphs in my consciousness. this was my writing exercise for the day.

-Laugh at your little brother's speech impediment. (12th Thtation, Jethuth dieth on the croth. we adore you oh chrith and we praith you. becauthe by your holy croth yoy have redeemed the world.)(shit memorize ko pala yung way of the cross??)

-When you're in BF, urge your family to go to ruins and buy a DVD copy of The Ten Commandments. as they look for other dvd's to watch, get your own dvd's. (I recently procured Kurosawa's Yojimbo, Donnie Darko, the movie adaptation of The Lover, A Very Long Engangement, Across The Universe, American Gangster, and a copy of the first Nightmare on Elm Street; yey :D )

-Observe the masses clamouring for mercy and forgiveness in the face of a non-existent deity. this one make will you laugh.

-Listen to Black Sabbath, Tool, A Perfect Circle, and Nine Inch Nails, during the procession. watch out for hot devout girls.

-Leave your PC on when you go out for all those religious crap. this way, you get to download a few gb worth of songs.

-Bring Marquis De Sade and Helene Cixous. Charge your Ipod. Keep a good supply of cigarettes in your pockets.

-Once you get home, read Richard Dawkins quickly.

-Drink a beer, or do ungodly stuff, to purge yourself of all that goodness.

-Worry about your thesis, revisions, and *gasp* statistics.

*BOW*

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The weather has been to erratic lately. parang puso ko, ang random niya. hahahaha. :P yan tuloy may sakit ako.

I Miss you, Malate People

I Miss you, My Litties

I Miss you, blockmates.

:D

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I plan to do a review of Across The Universe. The spontaneous overflow of emotions haven't recollected itself in tranquility yet. It was that good. :D

Happy Birthday, Drew. :D

Gago ka namimiss kita. haha

the size of the file that i'm downloading right now is a whopping 1.6 GB. it's the complete discography of probably one of the greatest bands that have ever graced the arena of music. the timespan for downloading the file will take 9 hours and 52 minutes (that is if the download speed stays at 32.0 kb per second) and suffice to say that's good electricity well wasted.

here is a complete list of all the songs included in that file:

Led Zeppelin - Discography

Includes Covers

Led Zeppelin - Led Zeppelin I (1969) {1994 Remaster}

01 - Good Times Bad Times
02 - Babe I'm Gonna Leave You
03 - You Shook Me
04 - Dazed And Confused
05 - Your Time Is Gonna Come
06 - Black Mountain Side
07 - Communication Breakdown
08 - I Can't Quit You Baby
09 - How Many More Times


Led Zeppelin - Led Zeppelin II (1969) {1994 Remaster}

01 - Whole Lotta Love
02 - What Is And What Should Never Be
03 - The Lemon Song
04 - Thank You
05 - Heartbreaker
06 - Living Loving Maid (She's Just A Woman)
07 - Ramble On
08 - Moby Dick
09 - Bring It On Home


Led Zeppelin - Led Zeppelin III (1970) {1994 Remaster}

01 - Immigrant Song
02 - Friends
03 - Celebration Day
04 - Since I've Been Loving You
05 - Out On The Tiles
06 - Gallows Pole
07 - Tangerine
08 - That's The Way
09 - Bron-Y-Aur Stomp
10 - Hats Off To (Roy) Harper


Led Zeppelin - Led Zeppelin IV (1971) {1994 Remaster}

01 - Black Dog
02 - Rock And Roll
03 - The Battle Of Evermore
04 - Stairway To Heaven
05 - Misty Mountain Hop
06 - Four Sticks
07 - Going To California
08 - When The Levee Breaks


Led Zeppelin - Houses Of The Holy (1973) {1994 Remaster}

01 - The Song Remains The Same
02 - The Rain Song
03 - Over The Hills And Far Away
04 - The Crunge
05 - Dancing Days
06 - D'yer Mak'er
07 - No Quarter
08 - The Ocean


Led Zeppelin - Physical Graffiti (1975)

Disc 01

01 - Custard Pie
02 - The Rover
03 - In My Time Of Dying
04 - Houses Of The Holy
05 - Trampled Under Foot
06 - Kashmir

Disc 02

01 - In The Light
02 - Bron-Yr-Aur
03 - Down By The Seaside
04 - Ten Years Gone
05 - Night Flight
06 - The Wanton Song
07 - Boogie With Stu
08 - Black Country Woman
09 - Sick Again


Led Zeppelin - The Song Remains The Same (1976)

Disc 01

01 - Rock and Roll
02 - Celebration Day
03 - The Song Remains the Same
04 - Rain Song
05 - Dazed and Confused

Disc 02

01 - No Quarter
02 - Stairway to Heaven
03 - Moby Dick
04 - Whole Lotta Love


Led Zeppelin - In Through The Out Door (1979) {1994 Remaster}

01 - In The Evening
02 - South Bound Saurez
03 - Fool In The Rain
04 - Hot Dog
05 - Carouselambra
06 - All My Love
07 - I'm Gonna Crawl


Led Zeppelin - Coda (1982) 1994 {Remaster}

01 - We're Gonna Groove
02 - Poor Tom
03 - I Can't Quit You Baby
04 - Walter's Walk
05 - Ozone Baby
06 - Darlene
07 - Bonzo's Montreux
08 - Wearing and Tearing

the file also includes pictures of the band, lyrics, and album covers. Isn't it worth it? haha.

there was once a time when i tried to write about led zeppelin much in the manner of how Cameron Crowe wrote about them when he was young. truth be told, i failed at actually mapping out the euphoria and catharsis they have tattooed on my conciousness. and looking at all the stories i've written so far, all of the thematic content seem to resemble the tone and lyrics of their songs. they resonate their music. odd.

punchline of the month: it was cristina who introduced me to the led. :))

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thesis writing is slated to end in two weeks. i'm attached to my thesis. *bow*

smack dab in the middle of a traffic jam on the paved streets of Zapote, a Lyrnyrd Skynyrd's 'Freebird' blasted through my earphones (yes, the insane guitar solo part was playing), i browsed through my calendar to check my schedule. i suddenly realized that i made a miscalculation concerning the deadline of my undergraduate thesis.

yes. last night i was panicking to the point of dementia. i had one essay to go, and i had this absurd notion that the deadline for the submission of the first draft to my mentor would be on the 17th, exactly less than 30 hours from now. in truth, it was actually set on the 24th.

tanga. hahahaha. leche.

but alas, some relief at last. :)

i should have drank more beer last night. hahaha. :P

got this from neobie! :D

If you happen to be working on some creative writing project, fanfiction or NaNoWriMo or what have you, post one sentence (or more) from each of your current work(s) in progress in your journal. It should probably be your favorite or most intriguing sentence so far, but what you choose is entirely your discretion. Mention the title (and genre) if you like, but don't mention anything else -- this is merely to whet the general appetite for your forthcoming work(s).

-Tonight, Tonight (tentative title) (and oh this for workshop with dr. marj and the lit younglings) (andaming parenthesis parang algebra PEMDAS yak)

"Gaze at her the same way an art critic looks at a masterpiece of heavenly beauty. Commit to memory every inch of her face. Try to hold every detail in your mind as if it were palpable. Remember the brown eyes and her trimmed eyebrows. Remember her high-bridged nose. Remember her thin pink lips. Remember her fair skin. Remember the pearl earrings. Remember her slender neck, her full shoulders, and her porcelain hands. Remember her nails painted red. Remember her small breasts which you could easily cup in your hands. Remember her long legs and her stark white ankles. When you attempt to define sublimity, give all her features."

This is what happens when Neobie and I is in the midst of combatting the dreaded worload known as the undergraduate thesis. :P

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Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:22:54 AM): i would lend it to you but it's not mine either. hee.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:26:47 AM): hee indeed!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:26:48 AM): hahaha
carlo (2/8/2008 12:26:59 AM): i will buy and support piracy na lang
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:24:48 AM): yes because piracy is practical. and it makes pirates happy.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:28:54 AM): hahaha. yes yes. and sad pirates shoot cannons with cheese!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:26:33 AM): that is how they like their meals! like the French!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:30:01 AM): then can we surmise that pirates speak french?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:27:33 AM): well most of them have moustaches, so maybe?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:27:37 AM): hahaha ang labo
carlo (2/8/2008 12:30:52 AM): eto nanaman tayo.
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:28:25 AM): it's the post-midnight soup syndrome?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:28:26 AM):
carlo (2/8/2008 12:32:12 AM): yes yes. haha. it's how we welcome the early morning coldness and the viscara-suckers of the witching hour.
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:30:25 AM): berigud. this shall be a ritual that will rid the world of hungry cacklers.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:33:47 AM): yes yes. and of poverty?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:31:28 AM): hopefully.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:34:55 AM): haha. alam mo ba may binebentang baby cakes sa cbe?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:34:57 AM): yihee!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:35:00 AM): hahahaha
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:32:46 AM): whaaaa???
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:32:51 AM): gawa sa babies?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:36:15 AM): hahaha. hopefully not!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:36:16 AM):
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:33:40 AM): matutuwa si Mr. Gaiman!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:37:12 AM): hahaha. kung gawa sa babies?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:34:15 AM): yis.
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:34:27 AM): parang pambata na Sweeney Todd. haha
carlo (2/8/2008 12:37:54 AM): hala. hahaha. oo nga noh. matutuwa mga bata nun.
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:35:52 AM): they want to be eaten? gasp!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:39:14 AM): they want to see their co-bata to be eaten!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:37:18 AM): gasp! such evol little brains. hahaha.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:40:35 AM): hahaha. to create evill men!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:38:43 AM): goblins! haha
carlo (2/8/2008 12:42:48 AM): orcsesses!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:40:24 AM): how will the world turn out now?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:40:26 AM): hahaha
carlo (2/8/2008 12:43:45 AM): like what it is today?
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:41:16 AM): oh how profound. yis, that is correct. we were once goblins and orcsesses?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:44:42 AM): i am. you're an elf. hahahaha
carlo (2/8/2008 12:44:43 AM):
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:42:31 AM): i'm not an elf! i am anti-Santa.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:45:55 AM): i think we are drugs!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:45:57 AM): hahahaha
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:43:14 AM): we are always drugs!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:43:26 AM): haha and noodles.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:46:45 AM): yes. noodles that are complicated.
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:44:20 AM): with seasoning that is drugs too?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:48:10 AM): yes. and most importantly, they have their little friends! MSG!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:46:50 AM): and MSG is like rainbow sprinkles!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:50:16 AM): it causes nausea?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:50:17 AM): hahahahaha
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:47:52 AM): and hallucinations of unicornical proportions?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:51:27 AM): yes yes. and pegasuses! (ang pangit pegasuses. hahaha)
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:49:19 AM): hahaha baka dapat pegasi? whaaaa.
carlo (2/8/2008 12:52:39 AM): hahaha. parang uterus? uteri?
carlo (2/8/2008 12:52:40 AM):
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:49:55 AM): oo? hahaha sabaw
carlo (2/8/2008 12:53:28 AM): hahaha. i learned that from grey's anatomy!
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:51:02 AM): hahaha. waaaw. medical terms! hahaha
carlo (2/8/2008 12:54:33 AM): oo nga eh. hahahaha.
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:51:50 AM): okays i shall be a going. ^-^
Neobie Gonzalez (2/8/2008 12:51:58 AM): haha. good a night!
carlo (2/8/2008 12:55:08 AM): good a night!

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one day neobie, we shall compile our ym conversations, and publish it as a book. it will be the greatest philosophical books that will ressurect the likes of Aristotle, St. Thomas Aquinas, and jean Paul Sarte. hahahaha. :))

"old fool, old fool. this is my hour. do you not know death when you see it?"
-Mithrandir, Book 5 of The Lord of The Rings.

This is what i constantly say to my creative writing thesis.

yes, i am crazy. to keep myself from going completely insane, i have to invoke the spirit of Gandalf. :D

1. the handmaid's tale-40 pesos
2. beloved by toni morisson-40 pesos
3. three magazines which featured the shins, interpol, and foo fighters on the cover-270 pesos
4. the unbearable lightness of being (orig na vcd hahaha)-75 pesos
5. little miss sunshine-75 pesos
6. Stephen King's IT-75 pesos
7. The Best American Erotica 2 (edited by some woman who won numerous awards for her bondage and fetish fiction. hahaha)-150 pesos
8. 2 burgers from Hotshots- 300 pesos.

happy week. :)

Congratulations to the Winners of the 23rd Annual DLSU Literary Awards! :D

Short Story:
2nd Place- Akire Carreon and Carlo Flordeliza
Honorable Mention: Neobie Gonazales and Carlo Flordeliza

(hahaha. ang cute noh? sinamahan ko kayong dalawa sa awards niyo? ganyan ko kayo kamahal. talagang nag-tie pa tayong tatlo. i love my magic realists! :D)

Maikling Kwento
3rd Place And Honorable Mention: Paola Balugay
(mag bestriends nga tayo. hanggan sa pagpapanalo ng dalwang litaw at holdapan sa jeep, magkasama tayo. hahaha. :P)

Poetry:
2nd Place: Jill and Ivan:
(hahaha. distance. congrats!)

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on a lighter and more melancholic note, as pao and i were riding a random jeepney along the long stretch of aspahalt known as EDSA, two ugly bafoons, who looked like freaking orcs bred by motherfucking Saruman in Orthanc, decided to point their 6 inch knives on random passengers. yes, it was the kind of bladethat could probably pierce my flabby flesh easily. good thing they were foolish enough to panic and get off the jeep. two random women were victims of theft that night. i think it was a bag and a mobile phone that the two bastards got. pao and i had nothing but pity and sympathy to them.

funny, my first instict was to guard and hold pao when i saw the knives. and strangely enough, i was able to chuck in Sadie (my beloved Ipod) inside my bag. hahahaha. i think the song playing at that exact moment was Jeff Buckley's "Everybody Here Wants You". at least it was decent song. :)

paola, my dear bestfriend, i love you. andami na nating pinagsamahan. hanggang ba naman sa bingit ng kamatayan at kawalan ay kasama pa rin kita? awwww. :)

Ak's and christa's bus, that contraption they rode on, was also shot at. im glad they're safe. :)

go freaking third world country. :P

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milan kundera and douglas coupland, you shall earn your respective royalties from the books you've written one i procure my prize money. :D